Breathe Carolina - Can I take you home?
I have had this album on repeat for days, It’s Alexe’s fault. I’ve gone back to listening to lots of songs I was hooked on last year.
I just got nexted at least a hundred times on manroulette. Am I that repulsive? Last time I try it.
I should know better, than to try and be myself in this backwards fucking town.
For the sake of anyone not following my twitter; I was physically attacked tonight, because of my sexuality. I had walked into the men toilet, and as usual I used a stall to avoid comments and avoid making any straight men (Who seem to think they are all irresistible.) uncomfortable. Literally checked myself in the mirror for 30 seconds when a man came and shoved me from behind into the sinks.
“What’s with the fucking make-up. Fucking shit stabber. I bet you like the cock. Do you like the cock?” Was the question given too me, finger being jabbed in my chest. I looked this guy up and down, he was about a foot and a half shorter than me, and looked like a shaven monkey that had been kicked through topman.
“Yes, I’m queer.” was my answer. “Now, if you’d like to get out of my way, I’m drowning in your awful after shave.” I go to try and walk past, I’m shoved back again.
“Faggots got no right pissing in a mans toilet.” Was spat in my face. I had no interest in this confrontation, so I made to push past him, only to be struck in the face. “Gonna cry gay boy?” I wasn’t crying, and nor did I get a chance to respond as from nowhere a bouncer seemed to emerge, dragging the guy by his collar out of the door.
My tooth had been broken and my mouth was bleeding, I was given some whisky by the manager to numb the pain in my mouth (Bonus?) and some cotton wool to stop the bleeding. The guy was arrested, and I had to give my statement along with a man from in the toilet who had apparently alerted the bouncer. While the guy who’d hit me friend’s told them that I had come onto him. BOLLOCKS, MATE. They dropped the story when they told us there is cctv in the sink area.
My night continued, got into ladies night free at Heights because the bouncers thought I was a girl (never been more happy to be mistaken for female, I saved £5.) and even though Rebecca and Anna found Army boys, I didn’t play the spare wheel for long, had a snuggle with an old friend in the leopard lounge. And it really was a fucking fantastic evening, It was just overshadowed by the action of the ignorant and intolerant.
It made me realise though, that while they can hurt me, my pride is stronger than I am.
me so cr33p3r
^__^;
mine is embarassing because of who it is… i31.tinypic.com/ric003….hehehehehehe :P
FUCK YEAH… *cool face*
Not because of who it is, but for their massive percentage ;_;
So Ashleigh is like, one of me best friends. In fact I love her so much that she’s in the special group of people I keep that can’t be called friends, because they are more than friends, more than anyone else.
Today she sent me a poem (being the Literature student geek she is :P) and it made me smile, made me cry, made my heart swell and made it break all at once.
Sometimes I think of you and want to cry
Tears so hard. I don’t know how I’ll get by
The rest of this summer without you here,
And you have resorted to drinking beer.
(This won’t compute in my head, it’s not true,
without make-up and bitch drinks it’s not you)
It’s not fair that we have to be apart,
Because I want to share my life, my heart
But mostly my utter gayness with you.
The rest of the whole world just don’t have a clue
about how to act around gays like us
who can kiss passionately, and it does
not phase us one bit. Because I love you,
And I know you love me, and you know what?
We can do Just exactly as we please.
I miss you, and can’t wait for Lincoln times.
xxxxxxxI really can’t express how much she means to me, couldn’t begin to tell you how much she’s opened my mind, and my heart.
I originally said that I wanted to keep this blog a diary of my life, and to keep all the amazing things here as well. I’m happy to finally have something positive that I want to keep on here.
I miss that crazy lesbigay so much <3
New entry on the personal blog I set up, I’m happy to say it is the first one in which I haven’t ranted or been ‘emo’ on.
Derp.
