I have felt worthless for a long time now. McFly tour and now being home has lifted my spirits, but now, I realize I look at everything like a child, I need to stop being so fucking naive and see that the world is shit, and full of shitty people.
My family have so much shit to deal with right now. How dare I even consider being a bigger burden to them than I always am.
They deserve so much better than what they have, and so much better than me.