New ink! Couldn’t be happier. Grot is a master!
So here it is, slightly swollen and still very blotchy and shiny because of Bepanthen.
My new Tattoo, a cotton reel, it’s on my right wrist.
This tattoo hasn’t been planned for as such long period of time as my last, but it’s meaning is everything to me, and it marks an important turning point in my life.
This tattoo, in a nutshell is for my Nan. She’s been a seamstress all her life, and her sewing room was always a magic place for me growing up, and her house will always be the centre of the universe to me. My Grandparent’s house has been the only constant fixture in my life; it will forever be a place of love and happiness (Not to mention fantastic cooking) It has been for me, and my mum as well. My nan, my mum and the rest of my family are everything to me, I love her, them, with all my heart.
It’s been over a year since I’ve been going through counselling and therapy each week, and left behind one of the worst stages of my life. My arms are lined with scars because at the lowest point in my life I thought I wasn’t worth anything.
I’ve covered the most prominent of the scars that ran vertically down my wrist, and to cover it with this, to me at least, is wonderful. My nan has always been the one who’s there to heal, to cover and to make it better. I never want to go back to being that person and I like that I can close that chapter of my life with this.
I have something with me for one of the most important people in my life, to remind me of what is most important to me. And that I’m loved, I’m worth more than nothing.
No idea how to explain this all to my family, or my nan, because other than seeing marks on my arms, I haven’t spoken to any of them about what I went through before people who cared stepped in and I got the help I needed.
I don’t think I can tell you without speaking to you, why this means so much to me, and how happy I am with it. But I hope this made some sense, because I think i just sound stupid, rofl.
Xx
